Daddy's flying off to India for his company's worldwide meeting tmr morning. Am going to be his driver tmr. Haha... I shd get to bed soon, gotta wake up early tmr. And it's going to be a long long day tmr. But I am not complaining. I luv Fridays. Hee hee... Hmm... Having the car tmr will mean super expensive parking fees *if only it was the old campus. FREE!!!* Wish I could go India with daddy manz... Have not been there before. He's going there for a week and the meeting's only 3 days la... They are going to tour India for the remaining days! I also want!!! Haha...

So happy today's my last presentation for this sem. Din really prepare much for this presentation since it's not graded, just a sharing of our innovation ideas. I think my partner n I did alright la... Hee hee... Still have an individual report due next week. Am so going to finish it this wkend, then I can forget all about report and start mugging. I really don't think I have studied a bit manz... This is so bad... Jo wants to mug, WHO wanna mug with her and make sure she really studies? Haha... *muz smack me when I slack. hee hee...*

Oh yea... and I have gotten my internship! Yeah! It's good news. Thank god. =) However, internship also means goodbye to my holiday. Have to work from 23Apr to 4Aug. See la... almost the whole holis already la... URGH!!!!! Going back to start another sem so soon without much rest. So disgusting right????

Wow, I think I yack a lot already... Ok la... shall get going to bed soon... Hee hee... ;)

Woohoo! I am so glad, happy, overjoyed! Finally brought myself to talk to daddy. He's totally cool with me going to church and being a Christian! Praise the Lord! I was so worried for a week, worried about how he would react to the news. I am so afraid he would be upset and against it. Have been praying really hard that he would be open minded about it. Thanks god!

Daddy, u are truely understanding and open. I luv you to the bites! -hugs and kisses- Can't physically do that to him though. If not, I think he would freak out and think that I have gone mad. Haha... Really had a good talk with him and the family last night. Actually most of the conversation was about my brother in the end. Haha... About how he's coping with JC life and his desire to be always no.1. I think this is bugging him quite a bit coz it's nv easy to be no.1 all the time in a place like RJC. Ha! that's for going to a top sch la. Hee hee...

Alrighty, better get back to my work now... lalala.... =P

Another hectic week just passed. All that mad rush to complete a not even 30% completed project was crazy to say the least. (no thanks to our silly n damn slack mentality of "relax... project only due in wk 12. dun need to sacre, lots of time") Thank god all my project-mates are that sort of calm people. Not panicing really helps. At the very least our minds still could think properly. Haha... =P

Then it was the stressing over my IS elective report 2. My god, I really feel as if I have been the one doing the group report 1 and 2. Planning for meetings, doing up the notes for meetings, structure the report and finally compilling. Ok, I know I shdn't be complaining... she really can't do the compilling this time round. I muz understand. Was doing the report till my brain juz blank out and nothing logical cld come out the night (or rather early morning) before the submission. So heck care, print it out all thinking of juz submitting it during my 12 noon class. But I juz can't stand it when I was sitting in class, juz had to go n edit it. And I am SO glad i did! Goodness, so much more I could do to improve the report. Am so disgusted with my own work manz... Yucks!!! I can't imagine if I submit that in for grading. I think my prof will juz flip. Haha...

Anyway, despite all this tiredness and madness, it is really great knowing that I am so loved. For everything I do, he will be ard, nv leaving me alone. Fridays and sundays are now officially my fave days. Haha... So looking forward to the holidays, then I can start my basics with bern and yas. Lalala... I wanna know more and move closer to him. =)

Back to my bloggie... Been really busy since the last time i blogged. Actually, i am also not free now. Supposed to be doing my report. It's due TMR!!!! Brains real saturated already. Nothing's coming out! The work load is madness for this report! I feel like dying already. My dark eye rings are so appearing manz... I am turning so ugly! *manz... i sound like a bloody bimbo! yucks!!! Disgusting.*

Went shopping for bible with bern on Mon. Dearie bern insist on giving me as a gift. Am so touched by that gesture. Luv ya sis! Hee Hee... Yeah!!! now i have my own bible for cell n service. Hee hee... Saw so many books there at the bible house place too. Quite a number look pretty interesting. Maybe i will get back there after exams. =P

Feel really tired manz... that many many hours of lost slp. I miss it so much. Right now, I juz yearn for a whole day on bed, slping or juz lazing there, i dun care. I dun wanna see any more reports, presentations, implementations!!! I juz wanna rest...

I am so glad I found peace and answers in you. Thanks god.

Oh manz... I am so drained. Been a madness week of crazy work, rubbishy quiz and exams, endless shit to settle, I juz feel a need a break so badly. Wanted to go bowling with Alvi and Thomas today but was juz too tired n that stupid headache stopped me.

Hmm... I think I dun handle certain matter too well. Reflecting back this week, I felt I could have prevented some shitty incidents if I had done a better job in ensuring things were the way it was supposed to be right from the start. Why can't I be be a stronger and firmer gal? I am WEAK!!! I pray that relations will eventually recover with time.

Somehow, I miss cell meeting. Haha... But I can only join Gary and Bern at the fri cell meeting if I have nothing on. May have bowling training or other stuff on fridays. Maybe I should join somebody's cell who's not on a fri? Dunno la.. juz a tot. Haha... I think i still need some time.

Am pretty tired manz... think I shall stop here la... I really shd go n slp soon.. Need that slp badly manz...

I am pissed.
I am irritated.
I am hurted.
I am disappointed.

I am so losing my head, my calmness, my faith in you. Something is so wrong that I wanna juz cry out loud. But I am so afraid of the world I juz can't do all that I would like. Why do you seem so fake. I dun like what I see. I dun like what you do. Can someone juz treat me truthfully with actions and words from his heart but not his mind?

I seek perfection. But so often I am disappointed. Maybe I am just asking for it since I know deep in my heart perfection is not possible in this world.

Went to gary's cell meeting last night. Played the 'famous' people games and did some bible studies. What a coincidence, bible studies was about negativism. Was feeling pretty negative and upset in the day. Greatest timing such a message came about manz... By chances or arranged? Haha... Maybe he did have things planned for me...

Anyway, I found last night message really helpful and timely. Cooled my down and make me think about things properly. Thank god. =)

Thing will not go our way all the time, no matter how we might try to plan it in hope of accomodating and making it easy for everyone. The important thing is, we have to keep our objective and goal in mind, have faith. All will turn out well for we know we always have a backup plan. =)